I had a knock of confidence this week, my writing is different to that of people around me, mostly at Uni. I say things in a different way, it almost seems uncouth. I often say what I feel on blogs, be it right or wrong. I listened to peoples poetry in class, mine was different......I read it out and to me it sounded less polished, less clever and it rhymed.

I went quiet after that, I thought I was the stupid one.

It's now been brought to my attention, my writing is unique and that is why mine stood out. I don't buy this, because everyones sounded the same, they flowed, sounded intelligent and beautiful.

I am going to keep writing, and hope that I can write like my class.

I bought my Doors dvd's, and they came today, I'm happy. I have come to the conclusion that I need to move out of this country, it's been said I will. I hope to write and get somewhere, that's not full of selfish people, who have no idea of history, poetry and real culture.

Part of me likes the bohemian life, the beatniks were crazy.....but I know I don't fit in here, I don't fit this way of life and I never have. I fit elsewhere.

I want more, I can get more and I am going to get more. I've felt like this since forever, I don't think it's bi polar related, I think I fit a more laid back, music loving society with lots of culture....Italy is something I'm tempted by :)