I have no idea how to upload music without video to youtube, but I will work it out. I have sung since I was young, I get severe stage fright....so i don't sing in public.

I have a friend Cheryl who is one of the most talented singers ever, she sings on backing vocals and dance songs for various people. Her most famous client is Jay-Z, I've never met him, but I've seen photos and her name appear on albums. We decided last year to try out for X factor, it wasn't for us to ever be famous, but she wanted to show me I can sing.

The process was funny, you sing in front of production first, after 4 hours I got to sing and they put me forward. I said thanks but no thanks. I realised I would be used and probably made a fool of, not because of my singing, but I don't look like a pop star.

You can say look at Adele, Alison Moyet and what not, but these ladies aren't full on main stream, it is hard being fat. I watched X factor the last 2 weeks, and the fat ones were the best singers, but Simon didn't put any through. Tonight Miss Frank were good, but due to their non skinny frames, someone like Simon won't give them a chance. Danyl the other great singer.....got shit for being great.

I look at how the public will be, and the shallow nature of this shithole we call Britain, will show me that I made the right choice and someone like me, different would never be appreciated by the majority of the wankers here....maybe the whole world.

I know there are a few nice people, we tend to gravitate to the same places, like blogs, but outside of the places I go to....the world is still one massive dump full of knobheads.