I really want to say what I think, but it feels like this blog is becoming a hate fest. I only ever want to blog when I pissed off, ranting or needing to get summat off my chest. I have the biggest headache ever, I wish I could kill some neighbours...why do some kids get away with everything? Their parents think it's ok to bully and come near my house, but when I tell their kids to fuck off, it causes an argument. You tell your kids to ignore them, but they try running them over with their bikes, saying things....it gets to your kid after a while.

Right now I fucking hate people, not all but most. A lot of people manipulate so damn good, I envy them, I struggled for the first 5 years of my daughters life, the otherhalf would work 2 jobs, so i'd see him an hour a day at most. This left me in a lonely place....who the fuck asked me if I needed a break from my child? No-one....I even had to get someone to take her to nursery as I was that depressed. For around 4 months I was so deeply depressed I never left the house. I then went into a mania and went that high I started clubbing whenever my otherhalf had nights off from pizza deliveries.

But where was my sympathy? My sympathy was found through Jack...last name Daniels.

I think I'm sick of people like my stupid cunt of a sister, who act like they have something, just dramatise thier life. Simple fact is, she wants an easy life, kid is in the way, no man wants her because of her gob and she gets down sometimes.

I don't see her having bipolar, as she never did shit through her teens...it runs in families, but quite rare in step families. I think she is playing everyone for fools and partying her tits off, then lonely again.

I'm no longer one of them, I've changed back to my birthname, and can anyone give me tips on finding out court reports from the 80's.