Living with a lie or a secret is something that can fester for years, some deal with this extremely well, sensitive people end up spilling the beans or letting it consume them. You have it drummed into you that lying is very wrong, and that keeping secrets isn't the way to be. Yet those same people habour lies and secrets so devestating, they appear to be liars in their own right.

How do you differ between whats right and wrong, when the same people teaching you, are master of deception. Is it right to feel confused about things and certains matters of the heart?

How can these people judge you, when themselves are some of the biggest liars and deceptors in your life? I can answer that....After a long long time, I no longer let these people judge me. Afterall when you decieve people and omit certain information, it weakens your role and power over someone.

Lately I have heard from someone, we don't get on, I feel if certain people weren't in the family, we would be the best of friends...as we are very alike in many ways. Just she's more bolchy than i. I felt a little guilty for telling her I didn't really want to know, but for me it is for the best. I do prefer the way things are, and I also see the same problems are there......See for a long time someone had me believe I caused those problems......funny thing is....it was she.