I don't claim to know everything, but sometimes you can get this arrogance with a high....so at times you can think you know more that you actually do.....it's quite funny when you start talking car engines with people, and you find that your making sense. I also tend to find I get little obsessions, like during this high i'm into rubber ducks...before its been magnets, lunch box tins and tubs.

I beginning to accept things, i laugh, cry and smile....I also accept that I wasn't blessed with a flat stomach, nor will i ever be due to having stretched my skin so bad from the huge days....but it doesn;t matter, because my other half likes a chubby lass and big boobs. I no longer have a "bitches" voice in my head telling me i need to lose weight and that i might not be pretty, but at least i have brains....instead I think i'm alright, i don't need a bag over me head :)

Tonight I sat on my neighbours front and chatted to everyone, they were thrilled I came over, and want me to do it more often.....I enjoyed it, albeit a little quiet though....i just like listening.

I also feel a sense of pride too, knowing I don't dump my kid on people and go out every weekend...I see a few younger people doing this lately, its amazing how many peoples parents end up bringing their own kids kids up.

Im now been tested for thyroid probs, as my weight gain and me not eating much is a cause for concern....Lithium apparently affects hormones and can give you a possible thyroid problem...typical! Although between you and me, i actually love having boobs 2 cup sizes bigger :))

I've had Kasabians new album on, and i adore it....