I always thought i'd need this blog to get me through a week, but lately with the sun, my daughter and my boyfriend around...i kind of feel it is easier to talk with them about my issues. I looked back on parts of this blog, and I know with having bi polar and borderline personality disorder I will end up back in those same places....but for now I am enjoying this life I am in, and embracing the good changes happening to me.

A few weeks ago i did a lot of research into my conditions, and found out not many have both....so I took it in and realised i'm very very unique :) I have a man who shows me how to love myself, warts and all. But I am still confused over my ex, so I push that aside for now until I am ready to deal with it properly. I researched into my mindset by starting this blog, i also researched different methods of coping with a chemical inbalance without the use of tablets. I've been away from junk food, take aways and stressful people for 4 weeks, and this is the happiest i've been in 7 years. The crap they put in foods is a factor.
I still have my moods, and they are extreme, but i'm finding new ways of dealing with them, the crowd voices in my head are still bad, but i cope better with that too.

I still hate public transport and I have a hatred for all things with stings....goddamn wasps!!!!
I havent farted in front of anyone since that isolated incident either.....

:)