First off, I did write a blog at 2 30 am this morning, I haven't posted it because it was an angry one, and lately I try and think before I say things. I'm rather peeved if Im honest. What I'm about to say my upset some of you, and it may result in some of you removing me from your friends lists.

I can be sensitive, but mostly I take fat jokes on the chin, I take jokes about me been a brit or a "thick" northerner on the chin...It's when I'm a smartarse back and you take offence is when shit hits the fan. I'm all for freedom of speech, and this to me includes any kind of jokes barring child molester ones...they are too sick for damn words. If you can say fat jokes with ease, then I'm going to mention disabled and anorexic ones back at you...why? you ask. Simple, I have a mental health problem, this led to my weight gain, I didn't drink, do drugs or sleep around, I used food....I ate food in dribs and drabs, I've never been able to eat 5 portions of take away in my entire life, so for those fatties that do on tv...then fucking hell....I was a picker, then I put 5 stone on with my child. I'm tired of it been that all fat people can eat 20 burgers and 16 bags of fries...it's not possible for all fat people. But a majority of us have underlying mental health problems.....I gained weight so I wasn;t attractive to men, especially older men...the reasons been due to abuse.

So maybe counselling would have helped, but I'm still fucked up in my head about things, i've lost a lot of weight now and am continuing to do so.

MY point been this, why can a racist person or one who slates disabled people be done by the police, but people like me, can;t do fuck all about it? Why is it so widely accepted huh?

I've upset my neighbours sister, she told me a few fat jokes, I found them rather funny....So I proceeded to tell her anorexic and skinny jokes....she flew off the handle, called me an evil bitch etc...I was that stunned I laughed. I don;t actually give a crap about why someone gets an eating disorder...why? Because no one helped me through mine, no one stopped to ask me why I wanted to be so huge.....Why? Simple fact is, they see you as a lazy pig. When mostly they are very far from the truth with that.

So to you who tell fat jokes, if I know you, I will make a joke about YOUR issues, just to make it even....Sorry...that includes alcoholic ones, anorexic ones, fat ones, mental ones...This may be a chip on my shoulder, but I'm tired of conforming and smiling...because "thats what us fatties do"

I also had to see some shit on my mums forum......I have plenty of arsenal to throw at people, because heightening someone eles insecurity makes them defensive...hence this post.

As for disabled people, my mum is disabled...some are born this way, some have accidents, and then theres the few that through drink or drugs end up that way.....so forgive me if i'm not so sensitive to you people either. Because some of you aren't so kind to me. This is for Mickey G, who after 15 years of heroin abuse now has state benifits coming out of his arse, new car and no legs....Yet I;m the fatty who is draining the NHS.....I'm not tarring everyone the same brush, but I'm trying to get my point across, my mum mentions to me I can do something about my weight whereas she can't do anything about her leg....this disappoints me...for personal reasons....I'm not racist, homophobic or anything of the sort, I'm just upset that we as people have to smile through other peoples bullshit insecurities.

Food for thought

~stuffs another 5 jaffa cakes in her mouth...because apparently thats all I do~