It's been a while huh, I thought maybe the blog was a reason I was quiet, but it was me. I've been reflecting on stuff this passed week. I'm going to make some changes to my life, because I am not happy. I don't feel lonely, but more pissed off with the direction my life is heading.

I keep thinking about the future more than the past, yet the future I see isn't the one I'm heading towards, because I am not making the choices for me, I'm trying to keep people happy....I know where and who I want to be with, I know what I want to do, I just don't know how to explain to all involved.

I haven't seen most of my family since christmas, and i feel I am losing touch with them, I already feel not part of them....so I am more distant towards them now.

I'm enjoying somuch too, I just can;t be arsed to list it all...will do later hehe