I have recently found this editor, so i'm still finding what font I like...I adore this colour anyways...my fav.

I've had a rather stressful few days, but been sleeping 6 hours a day, the nightmares are just as bad, but the concoction that is helping me sleep, is why I don't feel as tired. I also don't wake up...so if I piss my bed I won't know. Lucky that's not happened yet.

I have shut myself off from everyone lately, including my blog, I am distant and don't particulary give a crap about anything. Yet I feel ok...not depressed or anything, but just ok.

I had a knight in shining armor come to my rescue today, as I was going to sell my beloved comics, but he told me to get my arse to the post office and pick up some cash...he'd sent it by money gram, this is the 2nd time in 6 weeks. So I got my utility cash and spare to get food. I can never thank him enough. This is why I like australians. He's a good mate.

I feel like I need a break from everything, but can't see that happening anytime soon, and I need a night on my own, without a pre teen kid constantly bitching about stuff, I try to understand and spend heaps of time with her, then it ends up she wants to sleep in my bed. So i have been getting her friends to come play, yet it's not enough, she then wants me to fund a trip to the cinema. I just smile and say not today.

I also wish my mum would tell me the name of my real father...but that won't ever happen...if only she would understand that i want to know who i am.