Archive - Epiphany Of The Jaded Reprobate

Land Of Confusion...

by shakeberry ^Pro @ Saturday, May. 03, 2008 – 16:44:24

I just had a bizarre day today, I'm in a good mood considering. I have stopped taking all my meds, except the iron tablets(when I remember) I have calmed down...i like been calm. I feel more relaxed, I still think I'm too damaged for anyone to want me full time. But I have a lovely daughter...who I am missing like crazy, I miss her jokes that aren't funny, I miss her asking me to braid her hair, I miss her asking me to make her ready brek, and then laugh as I overcook it...I cannot use a microwave...I'm a proper cook kind of girl. I miss Shanna heaps....

I have had a really strange day, and I don't know if it's me, or I've just been enlightened by certain stuff....who knows...but this one song has got to me....

The morning after the night before...Berry is stupid

by shakeberry ^Pro @ Saturday, May. 03, 2008 – 09:25:39

God why did I drink...I haven't got a hangover, just think I have dented the ego loads! I have a few blog stalkers, I'm doing great!
My daughter called me at 8 am, I didnt have the heart to tell her I was too tired, so I pepped up during the 20 min call, she's off to the seaside today with sperm donor, although she called me upset at how his family are ignoring her in favour of his nephews. I said just listen to your ipod and talk with your dad. I'll be picking up the pieces tomorrow....it hurts when your baby is upset...but she wants to be there, so what can I do?

And I'm glad you noticed me for all of 5 mins....I'm trying not to take it so personal that now you are ignoring me completely..

I kind of give up on men, the one time I tell someone I like them, I mess it up.......I'm good at that :yes:

Pondering on stuff...

by shakeberry ^Pro @ Saturday, May. 03, 2008 – 02:02:44

It's about time I wrote a blog that wasn't about been a smart arse, or feeling angry. Instead I want to express my thoughts on a few things. Sometimes you find people in the strangest places, I have never been actively looking for someone...yet I kept seeing this person everyday...I liked things about them, and picked up on the little things...yet he's calmer than I am...and probably more sane. Am I good enough for him, probably not.

I just had a toasted panini, i ate without been sick..i feel happier knowing i got this off my chest...who knows what will happen.