Epiphany Of The Jaded Reprobate

Some dickhead said the title of my blog to me today....it was a local mechanic...I bearly know the knob, but my dog decides that while she's in season she'll go pouting her pussy to the local rottweiler....great...but she's a very small shih tzu! I had to go a few doors down to find my dog flirting with all the males, human and dog...so embarrassed and with a tight top on, I had to approach 4 guys all standing over the bonnet of this Suped up subaru. I shouts the dog...nothing...i did it again and all the guys looked up. I apologised for my whore of a dog, and picked her up..boobs flashing all and chuffing sundry! So that's now two of us who are whoring ourselves...one willingly the other not so.

So the mechanic says "you live up the street don't you"
I said "yeah, sorry about my dog"
Mechanic "No problem love, stick around, you will be walking in the presence of greatness"
Me said " Are you for real mate?"
His mates laughed so much...because apparently this impresses most women, according to his mates, so i said how old are they 15?
The mechanic said "I'll be seeing you around" and smiled.

I think i'm too fiesty for some people..but they watched me walk up to my house...I wish i had a clean top on thats for damn sure, and one that didn't let my 44F tits spill out onto the pavement.

Just been puking all morning, on top of that my electric ran out....mega not good...so i just used half of my last 20 quid. I really have no clue what I will do next week, but something will come up right? Not usually, but I have a few more job interviews lined up, which can only be a good thing. I actually applied at the local asda, as well as accountants places....only to be refused by asda...wow! That is so not a confidence boost.

Puking when you have no stomach acid is really bizarre...if you eat something, it tastes the same coming back up...and ready brek is no exception...just thought I'd share that with you.

I'm in a so so mood today, which means I feel like saying so, so, so while shrugging....Just joking, I want to go out, but no one to take me....~sighs~

My ex said he loves me 3 times today, and I actually told him every time, I don't feel the same, and never really did, I find it extremely hard to actually feel "real" love, just lust mostly, and that's been rare too. I saw it in his eyes that he means it, and I see it in my other ex's eyes when he says it. I feel such a bitch, but I can't feel a feeling I don't feel.

Today's Mexican Word Of The Day Is:

"Herpes"

"Me and my friend, we order pizza. I got my piece and she got herpes.

feel refreshed after 7 hours sleep? I feel worse than ever....I deep slept most of that 7 hours, although my mate called at 11 pm to see if I fancied going out, which I don't remember replying with "We decided venus will be the place to sleep, night" Maybe I was mega tired? i seriously have no recollection of that...she text me thats all, saying I'm off my rocker...she's known me long enough to not need to tell me that, me already knows

Oh and Love is a losing game, I realised I will be a woman who smells of pee and has 3 cats and 2 dogs, who will probably walk the neighbourhood chatting about my feet and the local kids been little shits...I also have the prospect of maybe seeing my daughter been a lesbian, so yeah lifes good. I think this because I have to screw my kid up somehow...and I seem to have a knack for some weirdass shit..might as well assume she'll be lesbian, as she's too quiet for a serial killer....but maybe not

Well I'm off to contemplate my future and make something to eat...as i woke up hella hungry and it's been days since I ate something really nice. I lost more weight...good but bad too.