Epiphany Of The Jaded Reprobate

My ex said to me 4 months ago, I know you hate pop crap, but listen to Impossible by Christina Aguilera...now this guy isn't creative, but he knew it's the only way he could ever get through to me..I just listened to it, and thought uh oh....

I've decided to let go of the crappy feelings and just stick to been nuts but funny...seems to work best don't ya think?

The woman annoys me but the lyrics mean a lot in loads of ways...shame I didn't listen to the poor fucker huh? I'm glad i'm impossible to love, makes life so so much easier

Impossible

t's impossible
It's impossible to love you
If you don't let me know what you're feeling
It's impossible for me to give you what you need
If you're always hidin' from me

I don't know what hurt you
I just, I wanna make it right
Cos boy I'm sick and tired of trying to read your mind

It's impossible (impossible)
Oh baby it's impossible for me to love you
It's the way it is
It's impossible (impossible)
Oh baby it's impossible
If you makin' it this way

Impossible to make it easy
If you always tryin' to make it so damn hard
How can I, how can I give you all my love, baby
If you're always, always puttin' up your guard

This is not a circus
Don't you play me for a clown
How long can emotions keep on goin' up and down

It's impossible (impossible)
Oh baby it's impossible for me to love you
It's the way it is
It's impossible (impossible)
Oh baby it's impossible
If you keep treating me this way
Over, over (over and over)

Impossible baby (impossible, impossible)
If you makin' it this way, this way
Oh baby, it's impossible
If you makin' it this way

For the last 2 hours I have been lost on public transport..through choice I have realised that after living in Sheffield for most of my life..I have only ever used certain bus routes, and where I live I only use the tram or 51 service...yet at the top of my road there's another 3 services....so the daring bugger in me decided to change my view on stuff and venture onto one of these buses...I text milly back after we were arranging tomorrow, only to look up and have bloody idea where the heck I was..instead of panicking I giggled...my first giggle since yesterday....My sense of adventure had kicked in and I felt free...until this old biddy got on and decided that her 6 carrier bags needed to hit me on the boob!! They are rather sensitive at the moment ~coughs~ Ladies you know how that goes...So with my aching tit I moved seats and blew a raspberry...much to the amusement of 2 guys. Shanna was hiding her laughs...The old woman then called me rude and said I should set a better example to my younger sister I stayed quiet and smiled, as unbeknown to her she just paid me the nicest compliment I have received today....so when we finally reached the city centre...with great relief I thanked the lady for hurting my knocker ( i actually said that ) and that me and my daughter apologise for our silly behaviour, but sometimes you have to "let loose"...she said she was suprised Shanna was my daughter, to the agreement of half the bus So I feel really big headed right now...

I want to just say to Raphael if you ever read this....It's not easier and I got a mega headache over stuff. And I miss the music.

Also I attempted to try and fix a shelf up...if I put none round things on it they roll off, they stick if i add blu tack, is it ok to glue and tape the brackets? Just wondering...not that i have...because I didn't drill the holes too big for the screw...~shakes head in denile~

Got a fact for you, as a child I was classed as gifted and had the chance to go to a private school, my parents thought it would be better leaving me where I was...I had intelligence beyond my years...wonder what the heck happened?

The Back of You

Your bitter words have left me broken
The way they made me feel wide open,
I tried to tell you the way things are
Instead you opened up the deep deep scar

We fight and argue but still want more
The intrigued and lust was/is the allure
You cut me deep the worst i’ve had
I feel no joy and i’m hurting bad

I’m selfish, needy and wanted it all
This is and was my biggest downfall
You pushed and pushed and I resist
But you never knew you were truly missed

If you saw my tears you’d understand
I needed you to take my hand
I’m hard to love and loved too hard
My heart is like a broken glass shard

I lost you tonight and feel it raw
I cannot give you me anymore
I wish you wanted me to stay
Instead I’ll watch as you fade away.

By Berry 17th May 2008

It's not the best, but i had to get my words out, and here it is.